He looked at his life. His prayer life was a frantic attempt to keep God from being angry. His service was a ladder he was climbing to reach a heaven that felt farther every year. He had turned the infinite ocean of grace into a tiny, leaky bucket of works.
For the first time in twenty-two years, Lin Wei stopped trying to be a good Christian. And in that strange, terrifying rest, he finally became one—not by effort, but by exchange. The grace had been there the whole time, waiting for him to stop building the prison walls of his own religion. The Complete Works of Watchman Nee - Grace In Christianity
For a terrifying, holy moment, nothing happened. Then, a quiet voice—not audible, but as real as the floor beneath him—seemed to reply. Finally. He looked at his life
Lin Wei had been a Christian for twenty-two years, and for twenty-two years, he had been exhausted. He had turned the infinite ocean of grace
It wasn’t sarcastic. It was relieved.
The old Lin Wei would have quoted Scripture at her. He would have given her three steps to recovery and a fasting schedule.
He pulled the worn book from his jacket pocket. He opened it to a page where Watchman Nee had quoted the apostle Paul: “I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me.”